Ariel Castro spoke for 20 minutes in court today. Read his entire statement here.
"First of all I'm a very emotional person, so I'm going to try and get it out. I stated before a victim of sex acts when I was a child. This led me into viewing pornography eventually after I (inaudible).
Paint me as a monster, I'm not a monster. I'm sick. My sexual problem on my mind. Compulsive. But eventually I married I had four children.
Lived a normal life, but I still practiced the art of touching myself and viewing pornography. I believe I am addicted to porn that it makes me impulsive and I realize that what I'm doing is wrong. I'm not trying to make excuses... I'm contesting that (sex crimes).
I've been a musician for a long time 20, 25 years...I'm a happy person inside. I drove a school bus for 21 years. A Very good job. Towards the end I started slacking off... it was just too much and coming home to a situation I just couldn't juggle both of them. But um I never had a record until I met my children's mother.
My son was on there the other day saying I was abusive... I wasn't abusive until I met her... I wasn't a wife beater. This would happen because she wouldn't quiet down.
She would respond I wouldn't care, the situation would escalate until the point she would put her hands on me and I reacted. I know that's wrong.
After living for 12 years we were separated I was single for five years. During that I continued to practice of the art of mast and pornography.
Two or three hours a day non-stop... when I picked up the first victim, I didn't even plan it that day. It was something that I planned...that day I went to family dollar and I heard her say something... that didn't day I didn't say I was going to find some women. It wasn't in my character.
I know I'm 100 percent wrong, but I'm just saying, they're trying to say I'm a violent person. I'm not a violent person. I drove a school bus musician family... every time I would come I would glad of the situation and my daughter... Question her.
She'll probably say the opposite. She'll say my daddy is the best daddy in the world...she had a normal life. I tried to take her out in public to give her a normal life. I would take her to church. I would come home and just be a normal family.
These accusations that would beat them. That's totally wrong your honor. I know what I did was wrong, but I'm not a violent person. I know when I picked up the second victim, she was Gina. I don't understand how I pass up my own daughter to pick her up. I was driven by sex.
And now I did not know who she was. I did not know she was related to the DeJesus. I know her dad we went to school together.
Amanda. She got into my vehicle without knowing who I was. I'm not trying to blame her, but I'm trying to get the point across that I'm not a monster, I have an addiction. I couldn't control my addiction.
Most of the sex that went on with the house was consensual. These allegations forceful on them is totally wrong. There was times they would ask me for sex. Many times. I learned these girls were not virgin. Multiple partners before me. All three of them. But that's basically it.
I just want to clear the record, I am not a monster....preyed on them because of my sexual addiction. As god as my witness, I never beat these women. I never tortured them.
Finally would like to apologize to the victims. Amanda Berry, Gina DeJesus, and Michelle Knight. I am truly sorry for what happened. I don't know why... I had a job, I had a home, my vehicles, my musical talent. I had everything going on for me your honor.
I had a good history of working providing. I hope they can find in their hearts to forgive me because we had a lot of harmony going on in that home. If you see the YouTube video this weekend that proves... if that was true do you think she'd be out there already partying.
I see Gina in the media. She looks normal. She looks normal....she's happy. The victims are happy. I haven't seen much of Michelle because since Day 1 no one missed her. Never saw fliers about her. I feel like the FBI let these girls down. When they questioned my daughter, that's OK, but they failed to question me.
I'm their father. If they had questioned me, after Gina was missing, it's possible it would have ended right there. And also they forgot to mention that I was addicted to porn.
But I am truly sorry to DeJesus family, Michelle and Amanda you know all the harmony that went on in that home. I asked God to forgive me. I apologize to my family Apologize to the state of Ohio, the city of Cleveland.
I just want to apologize to everyone who was touched by these incidents, but I also want to mention there was harmony in that home. I was a good person.
Find it in their hearts to forgive me and maybe do some research on people who have addictions so they can see how their addiction takes over their lives. So again I'm sorry to all the victims. I'm sorry to my daughter.
Because I know god bless her she's a miracle child. And God bless the women too. I could have taken her to the ER and I chose not to. Thank god nothing happened because just last year she started getting (inaudible) because I know infection can possibly take her life.
I know how everything works, but that's part of the problem I have. I just started talking and I got blank, so I apologize to you your honor for bringing this case into your courtroom.
Again, thank you everyone and I'm sorry for everything. I know true judgment day is when God comes and judges me.
I've been reading the Bible. I've been asking for forgiveness.... DeJesus family in the end that was uncalled for. So again thank you everyone, thank you victims. Please find it in your hearts to forgive me.